Now that the stress of final exams and lab reports for my 2nd year of college are over, I finally have the time to sit down and think about this last year of college that, unfortunately, happened in the blink of an eye. This post is being written partly because being back in my home town has subjected me to plenty of time to reflect on my life and frankly, I just can’t sleep :P
Sophomore year, similar to my freshman year, flew by entirely way too fast. I’ve made some incredible friends, had my first job, and even managed to keep a solid GPA along the way. I’ve learned a lot about myself as a person and discovered more things about where I want to be in the next few years. Though this year came with a lot of big changes, the memories that stand out to me the most are the small ones. When I think back, I remember changing outfits 5 times with my roommate before heading out, laying in bed and watching Scandal with my best friend for hours on end, the nights I just stayed up talking about life, love, the future, anything with the people I cared about the most. It wasn’t ideal, but I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.
Sophomore year also offered me a different viewpoint of life: loss. I lost one of my best friends this year in the most tragic way possible. His death, along with the three others’, affected so many people and it made me see things in a new perspective. Jim’s passing reminds me that we should never take anything for granted and we should always be thankful for the ones who are kind to us. Jim taught me that life is too short to worry about what others think of you, their satisfaction will not bring you happiness. Life is so short to worry and stress over insignificant details. Jim taught me that if you want something, go for it, no strings attached. Go to that party, skip a workout, always be there for those you care about, and be free to love who you want to love.
In the midst of all the chaos that is life, it’s sometimes hard to appreciate how precious this time is. Jim will always be a part of me, and he will be there to remind us that we should always strive to be the best versions of ourselves, no matter what. One day if we’re not there anymore, we will have hoped to make those around us grateful they they knew us and hope that we have made a positive, lasting impression on their lives as well.